I never thought that the subject of sex could be the cause of so much controversy. I shouldn't be surprised for it does show up in history that it was NOT the most talked about subject since the dawn of man......... or was it. The subject has come up with some of my family members of why they think that I am who I am. Was it that my father wasn't really in the picture? Was is it that my mom never censored me as a child? Was it genetics? I can't answer these questions because I am not sure. What I can answer is the question I have gotten before. When did you choose this?
The answer, not the explanation, is this. I never had a choice. This wasn't a fad I saw and decide it was the better way to go. The only choices I had in this was to be who I was and let myself know that is was okay to be me. Now, let me explain. Growing up I never saw two men getting it on, I never saw two women making out, I never say a man dress up like a woman as a lifestyle. Before I saw any of this there was a guy. A friend of a cousin of mine. Everytime he came around I wanted to be around him. He was my first crush. My thoughts then were not "My god what is wrong with me" or "Are people going to hate me if I say anything." No, my first thought was "Me Like." The only lesbian couple that I can remember being around never showed that kind of emotion around me, for a long time I thought there were sisters. So my question then is how could I choose something that I didn't even know existed? How can I choose a lifestyle that was never introduced to me? I never saw same sex couples so why would I think it was ok?
A few people I have talked to like to bring God into the conversation. Something I can't get into me head is how a God and his Son are supposed to be so forgiving, so loving, would put me to death for something I, once again, didn't know I had a choice in. I have to say that if I had a choice, I wouldn't have chosen this lifestyle. I refuse to think that God and Jesus could forgive rapists (a violation that to me can never be forgiven), forgive murderers, but can't forgive me for loving someone who happens to be the same sex.
Now, there are those people who will tell others that it is no one's business what they do in the privacy of their own bedroom but to that statement I have this to say. If that is all you think that being gay or bi is, then why bother letting people know you are? Being gay, bi, or even straight is more than just sex. Being who you are is more than loving someone in the bedroom. It is about loving that person no matter where you are. It is about showing how you feel for someone no matter who is looking. Most of all it is about being happy of who you are because you love someone, and that person loves you back.
I think people need to be more worried about human lives rather than human lifestyles. This isn't some disease that is spreading, killing innocent people. There are children out there being abused to their very last breath, there are elderly who can't remember the people they have loved their whole lives, there families who have lost their father/mother/grandfather/grandmother/son/daughter because someone had a grudge on our goverment and took it out on innocent lives. There aren't a lot of people who are concerned about them, instead they want to focus on why people in our community wanting to get married, making accusations that affecting the sanctity of marraige. Isn't the point of marraige love? In the words of Whoopi "If you are that concerned with gay people getting married, don't marry one." Besides, I think those people should choose to get to know us before they judge........................................................
We're supposed to be more fun anyway, j/k.
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