Insomniac

I lay down
Eyes wide open
I think my mind has gone blank
I think about today
I think about tomorrow
I think about five years from now
I think about five seconds ago
I check my phone
No one
My eyes are straining
I shut them
I open them
I’m so tired
I can’t sleep
I’m mentally running
And there is no stop in sight
I check my phone
No one
I sit up
I look around
My eyes are dry
I lay back down
I look at the popcorn up above
I check my phone
No one
I stare at it
I want it to say something
I want it to show me someone
I want it to answer my questions
I put it down
Vampire Weekend
No
Imagine Dragons
No
Savage Garden
No
Random
Yes
I check my phone
No one
I close my eyes
I open them
I pause
I have paused for awhile
Night has never felt so cold
So alone
I turn to the right
Flip to the left
I check my phone
No one
I feel around
No one
There is no one

Not Really There

They’re coming for me
I can feel them breathing on neck
I feel their fingertips on the back of my shirt
They’re grasping
They’re clawing
They’re...
They’re...
They’re not there
I turn to see no one
Not a soul coming through the fog
It’s empty
Everything is empty
My breath has slowed
My feet are still
There it is again
It’s not them
It’s you
Your hands are at the back of my neck
The move down my back
Under my arms
Around my waist
Then they squeeze
Tighter and tighter
It almost hurts
But don’t let go
Never let me go
I want to face you
I want to see you
But I know that if I do
If I truly face you
You won’t really be there