A Missed Call

I heard you calling a while ago

I didn’t want to answer

It took everything in me not to

I could hear the words before you spoke them

I could hear them beckoning me back

There was the sound of the light flickering

The shower drip tapping the tub

The boom of the heavy steps above me

The wind was a steady howl outside

All of it was circling around me

And it was the music to your call

A song I’ve heard before

A song I dread every time it starts

A terrifying

Orchestrated performance

The whole noise drives me insane

I fight you off once again

But I’ve forgotten what I am fighting

There is nothing but hurt

Every time I am near you

Nothing but pain

Every time you speak

Nothing but dread and depression

Every time your face appears

I say stop

But what am I stopping

I say no

But what am I refusing

I yell

But who is actually listening

And then I cling

Though nothing is in my hand

The lights become dim

And the world is dark

I hear screams in the night

But I ignore them

Praying they’ll go away

Then more pain comes

And I cry

But I have no tears left

And I yearn for sleep to take me away

Then I drift

I drift for mere moments

Until dawn has come again

Another day begins

And as I wonder what the night will bring

Your voice starts to echo in the horizon