Tranquility

The sun is setting for the day
I don't feel you here any longer
I can see my breath escaping my lips
It's a but colder this winter
There is so much horror in this world
It's persistent and strong
But through it all
I sit and think of only you
Not myself
Just you
I don't feel you here
I yearn for you
But you're nowhere to be found
I've traveled this broken path
I've stumbled
I've bled
I've died
I've searched through burning fires
I've searched through vast darkness
I've clawed through oceans of mud
Just to find you
Nothing left to lose
Nothing left to hope for
But I shall not yield
I'll fight until the light is gone from my eyes
Because one day
When the sky has fallen
When the leaves have turned to ash
When our very existence is pushed to the edge
I know
I will find you

End of an Endless

I can’t think
I can’t focus
I can’t hurt
I can’t cry
I can’t feel joy
I can’t write
I can’t will my fingers
To do my minds bidding
I’ve been stuck
I’ve been lost
I’ve been distracted
I’ve been walking in every direction
I’ve been confused
I’ve been trying to find an answer
To a question I haven’t asked yet
Where do I go
What do I do
Who do I turn to
When all I see is this endless fog
I feel trapped in this state of idiocy
That has never concerned me before
I’m getting caught up in a world
I’ve never believed in before
I’m chained up against a wall
And I’m the one who swallowed the key
I’m suffocating
I’m drowning
I’m falling
Im spiraling down
With all that’s working against me
I am my biggest threat
With all I have behind me
I am my biggest motivator
With nothing but the road ahead
I tread on with a weary and weak mind
I tread on