Wait

I listen for him
But all I hear is the cool night breeze
I look at the time
3am
I know he isn't coming
But I wait anyway
He disappoints me night after night
But I can't help but think
He'll come back one day
I return to me room
After a cigarette on the balcony
He hated that I smoked
But I hated that he left
I wanted to hate him
Hate him for his words
Hate him for lying
Hate him for…
Hate him for anything
So that I could get over him
But truth be told
I still loved him
For every bad memory
There were four good ones to replace them
I was at a loss of why he left
I couldn't think of a reason why he did
He was gone
No words
No reason
Just gone
And now here I am
Checking my phone every five minutes
An email
A text
A phone call
Nothing
Just the vast emptiness
The dark in which I've learned to embrace
When will be return
When will he call my name once again
When will he caress me as he once did
I have no answers to my questions
So all I have left is to wait
Wait for a return
That will never come to be