Gone

I woke that morning
To find you gone
I thought I had lost you before
But today I knew it was forever
I didn't cry
I didn't break down
But most importantly
I didn't die
I smelled the cold crisp air
Coming in the bedroom window
It was different today
It was better today
I let it fill my head
It gave me a high
One I had never known
The steps I take today
Are with my head held high
My coffee will be warmer
My walk will be straighter
And everywhere I go
Will be a new adventure
And though my days will be brighter
It comes at a price
One that I fight pay
Every time it come around
Though my day will go so well
It's the nights
The nights I will feel more deeply
My sweater becomes colder
My steps so much slower
And my tears
My tears are so much heavier
I delve
And I delve deep
For to see the sun shine
I must fight through the night
I will fight every night
To feel the warm sun
Once again
Shine upon me