Present

If only today
We lived
Just for a moment
If only yesterday
We took
That opportunity
If only tomorrow
We saw
That it never really comes
If only now
We grabbed
Our shining star
If only then
We sought
Our only chance
If only further
We could see
Our coming danger
But it is not
The past
Nor is it
The future
That we hold in our hands
It is
This very minute
Embrace it

In This World

Beautiful
Is the wisdom
That washes over me
Like the summer sun
She walked with me
Down the narrow path
And we are not afaid
I am her protector
But she is the one
Who watches over me
I keep beating
She keeps believing
Tears will fall
Hearts will be broken
But we are not afraid
With her at my side
The world makes sense
With me at her side
I make sense
Hand in hand
We will conquer the world
Soul in soul
We will conquer
Our lives
And through the horrors
Of this world
We will never be afraid

Force of Life

It's one big world
It's in their nature
People tear me down
It's in my nature
I'll be on my feet again
I've been under before
But my dreams keep me afloat
I keep myself going
I keep myself breathing
I've been broken
But I've been fixed
It's just me
Me is all I have to be
I'm still here
It's my life
I'll keep on fighting
Because I have to
Nothing
No one
Will stop me from
What I can do
It's just me
Me is all I have to be
Though sometimes lonely
I'm never alone
Though sometimes weak
I never lose strength
Though sometimes hopeless
I neve give up hope
Sometimes scared
I'm fearless
Sometimes hurt
I'm unbreakable
Sometimes loveless
I'm surrounded by it
Sometimes lifeless
I LIVE
I'M ALIVE
I'm still here
It's my life
I'll keep on fighting
Because I have to
Nothing
No one
Will stop me from
What I can do
What I can be
It's just me
Me is all I can be

My Own Personal Evil

A drug I don't need
A feeling I don't have
A word to remain unspoken
A world upside down
Another bridge burned
A heaven I can't see
A hell I don't want
A word to remain unspoken
A state untouched
A work of art ruined
A soul unsaved
A soul lost
A family separated
A family united
A word to remain unspoken
A prize not recieved
A reward undeserved
A love thrown away
A love given up
A smile broken
A heart torn
A life
A life
An unspoken word
Gone
A story ended
Like so many others
With an unspoken word

To Feel What Isn't There

I saw you again
this morning
I basked in your essence
then
just as I do every morning
I throw you away
I remind myself
I don't need you
I don't care for you
like you care for me
you need me to exist
but you must ask yourself
if you are with me
are you really yourself?
You hurt me
you make me hurt myself
I ache only when
you are around
yet
on most nights
I find myself in your arms
will I ever be free of you?
Or will I find someway
to have you near me
once more?
I can't stand you
but some days I feel
I need you
I feel your breath
on my neck
when people
are around
I wash you off
in my morning shower
yet
in the cool breeze
of the afternoon rain
you are standing
in front of me
waiting for me
please lose memory of me
I would very much like
to do the same of you

Reclaim

Why do you insist
on taking yourself
away from me
it's a daily struggle
to get you in my hands
yet as quickly
as I have you
you are gone
the days I don't see you
seem so long
I become so fragile
there are times
when
it gets so hard
I don't see myself
going any further
but through
the grace of God
I find myself
reaching for you
yet again
time after time
I'm reminded
just how harsh
and cold
you can be
it's then that
I ask myself
Are you worth it?
Yes
yes is my answer
because in the end
if no one else thinks so
I need to remind myself
yes
I am worh it