Ditches

I've hit a low

Another to add on to my belt

Hanging my head

Crying in shame

Trying to stick this out

Without the use of someone's shoulder

Without hating myself in the process

I won't blame anyone

I can't blame anyone

No matter what was working against me

I've gotten myself here

I've dug this hole myself

I've been busy

Too busy

Living a life that was taken from me

To realize the life I was carving

Too busy

Looking at what was 'owed' to me

To see the stacking debt

Too busy

Looking up

To see what was right on front of me

Too busy trying not to make someone else's mistakes

To not realize I was just making them mine

I've tried so hard

To steer in my own direction

I couldn't see

The damage I was leaving behind

I keep ending in ditches

Stuck

Tired

Bewildered

Hurt

I'm still holding the wheel

Looking around 

When all there is

Is me

Women Of Mine

Women

Of mine

Women of mine

You've left this world

A little lonelier this time

We're scared, confused 

And a little lost in the dark 

You have taken the light 

Women of mine

No shoulder to leave 

These tears I've been crying 

I still hear your voice 

Still see you in my dreams 

Still feel a light touch 

To catch my chin as I weep 

I turn 

You're not there

I scream 

You're not here 

I reach for the heavens 

But you're too far this time 

Women of mine 

My soul aches 

My blood boils 

My voice, gone 

My love, torn 

My heart, in pieces 

Women 

Of mine 

Women of mine 

Come back to me 

Women of mine 

To hold your hand 

To feel your embrace 

To feel you're love 

When the hands of hell 

Are clawing at my face 

I'm falling 

So far 

I'm broken 

I'm gone 

Call me once more 

Call me home 

Please call me home 

Women of mine 

I know you're not mine 

But I've always been yours 

Please tell me I'm yours 

I can't stand the dark

Can't stand the quiet 

Or the searching 

The seeking 

I can't seem to find 

These women of mine 

But I'll await your return 

You'll return to me 

Like the sweet spring buzz 

Of a Carolina honey bee 

I can't wait

For that one done day 

When you'll take me away 

We'll dance

We'll laugh 

Together in time 

Women 

Of mine 

Inside

The room

It's confining

It's small

Too small

Too dark

I wake up everyday

Wondering when I can leave

I feel around

Only to find nothing

No one

I can't see anything

I can't hear anything

But I know why I'm here

I'm here for you

I'm always here for you

You always keep me in the room

You always keep me close

So close I can't breathe

You squeeze me

But never hold me

You tell

But never talk

Say I love you

But never show love

One day I'll be free

No room

No walls

No fear

Just me

One day I'll be free

One day I'll be free from you